Monday, June 2, 2014

I'm Back

It is now June 2014, and I have been entirely inactive on my blog for many months now, really since I left Thailand almost a year ago. For whatever reason I felt I had nothing to say,"out loud" which is interesting considering the huge changes I was making. 
On January,13 2014 I wrote a journal entry in which I mentioned that it had been 10 months since becoming a vegetarian; at the end of the entry I talked about how I was eating too many junky fried foods like jalapeƱo poppers and mozza sticks. 
I devised a plan to cut out dairy twice a week, and incorporate RAW food only days. I started this plan on Jan, 15th: writing in my journal, "it's day 1 of heart me vegan day!! and I have been incredibly successful!" and then I went on to list the foods I ate. 
I went the two days, and then the next week did 4 days..and give or take a few days to iron out the bumps (realizing my favourite lime tortilla chips have milk ingredients) I would say by around Feb 1st, I was 100% veganized, it is now June 2, and I have been vegan for 4 months
I also got a juicer for my birthday, and started having one green juice a day (as well as my regular food intake) starting on April 22nd, and went a full 30 days- quitting finally after experiencing gastrointestinal issues, and a real dent in my bank account. I also found that I sort of stopped eating vegetables, because sub consciously I felt like I was ingesting enough in my juice, but was obviously missing the fibre, which I believe contributed to my weird stomach/bowel issues.
SO, here we are…and why I didn't document my vegan journey right from the start I'm not sure, perhaps I was unsure if I could continue with it? Or more likely, I felt like no body needs another personal vegan blog…but I really enjoy writing in my journal, and it's more fun to write online-because journals can be lost, and forgotten..but these posts will never fade and tear from the spine. 

So today happens to be the day I will begin to document another experiment in my personal journey to better health: I am starting at home yoga/other exercises. You would think that after 4 months of no cheese, no eggs, no butter, no yogurt, no ice cream. NO CHEESE. that I have dropped 25 pounds, but you are sadly mistaken. I didn't quit animals and their bi-products for weight loss, but I did hope that I'd wind up a bit lighter on my feet as an added bonus…:( but no.
I realize that in the last 8 months I have become extremely sedentary, I went from working 5 days a week at a job in which I power walked for a full 8 hours a day, walking to work, and beginning and ending my day with 6 excruciating flights of stairs- to sitting behind a computer screen 40 hours a week. so here goes my attempt at physical activity

Saturday, September 14, 2013

September Dreamin

Well here I am in Wisconsin..feeling the cool winds of fall roll in..I love the change of season..and this year it is especially exciting because I am officially a dual citizen..Canadian and American..wow it's so amazing!
I feel like the world is my oyster! I haven't written anything on my blog for awhile, as I hadn't anything much to say..I was focused on working, and preparing for the fall..
I'll be posting regularly now, documenting my journey moving to the US, becoming a Graphic Design student, and discovering a new city!!! There will be trips to Chicago and Milwaukee...and the Twin Cities perhaps..and reviews of local restaurants, cool local bands and anything else I feel like writing!!!


Wednesday, June 19, 2013

I LOVE LATEX FASHION!

I want to arrange a alternative fashion photo shoot when I get home wardrobed in STRICTLY LATEX!

Friday, June 14, 2013

The Gulf




9 Days Left in Paradise

Here we are, the last 9 days..and I am feeling content; I feel as if I've had a great trip but I am also ready to go home ;)
When I came out here I was hoping for a transformation, a revelation..an epic spiritual shift..and when nothing happened I felt a little bit cheated.
Then I realized that changes can happen albeit subtle and inconspicuous in nature..changes you don't realize have occurred until you're getting close to going home.

I feel as if I've had a lot of quiet time on this trip, and without the usual hum of traffic, the routine of work, and the act of paying bills..it's like my brain has been firing like the 4th of July. (more then usual if that's possible;)
I've actually felt overwhelmed some nights, as I'm trying to fall asleep and my mind just won't shut up and let me rest; Hours upon hours lying awake, next to my boyfriend who's blissfully enveloped in the depths of dreams.
It's almost like all the distractions of regular life at home allow you to sort of ignore the "big" questions or at least push them so far back..that they wind up forgotten when the time allows for reflection.
I always thought of reflecting one one's life as a chosen activity..like "ok today- I'm getting out my notebook and I'm gonna mind map..I'm gonna list pro's and con's..I'm going to attack this with a systematic efficiency." But on this trip..I've drifted into the dusty depths of my mind, and with the sounds of the sea crashing onto the shore..I've felt a whole spectrum of emotion..

I think we all look and wait for the "light bulb" moments...or we read "Eat Pray Love" and feel inspired to abandon our material pleasures, strap a filthy sac to our backs and head out on the beaten trail..to find an awakening in the bottom of a teacup whilst sitting cross legged at "Ethos" vegan restaurant, smoking apple shi sha with the alluring beatnik from Bali..but it doesn't necessarily wind up being that sensual and exotic....;)

Sometimes all you need is a step back, and a stack of books, and a small budget that leaves you ship wrecked on Koh Chang for 3 weeks with nothing but a shitty internet connection and a weathered beach front hut..oh and a fresh minty mojito at the end of a sun soaked afternoon spent bobbing in the massive waves in Gulf of Thailand!

What I'm trying to say is...these moments of clarity we seek, can be found when you allow your mind to be open, and exposed...when you ask the universe to feel a connection..when you shed your layers and open up your heart...and when you give everything you have to the cause that is your life and yourself..and then you start to feel the changes..the growth..and hopefully all you've dreamt for yourself will be free to stream into your path and manifest itself in you!!!!!

love love love love to you xxxxxxxxoooooo